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[Mar. 17th, 2008|03:01 pm] |
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Maybe you're, but not everyone is. |
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[Mar. 16th, 2008|03:20 am] |
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Sometimes when i don't emphasize, doesn't mean i dont want. |
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| Is it there yet? |
[Mar. 15th, 2008|01:25 am] |
Was it me or was it all of us, who had taken granted of everybody.
I might be selfish, stingy, petty but have anyone think before, have you done your part. Have you done your part as a friend, a bf/gf, a son/daughter, a grandson/granddaughter?
I've not fully done my part as a grandson. I hate their naggings though i find it a cure sometimes. I talk back to them though i cared for them in my heart. I actually found out actions are more than anything.
I've not fully done my part as a son. I often take money from my mum and dad despite knowing that they have worked very hard, and spent it as though it's stolen. I rebel, stay away from their rules despite knowing that they actually care so much.
I've not fully done my part as a bf. I cannot be supportive, understanding, less selfish. Knowing that she's the one i love, yet i didn't express what i really feel, didn't do what it means by love. I only know how to be loved, how to be pampered, how to be scared of getting betrayed. But i must know, i've a gf that loves me so much. For me, she've changed. What have i done for her? A part of my mind told me that i did make her happy but another part of my mind told me that i've also made her unhappy.
I've not fully done my part as a friend. I'm petty, selfish, stingy. When i have only a cigarette,i'd rather smoke it myself. When i've a few bucks, i'd rather spend it on myself. When i heard the things i find it unpleasant, i talked back. I care and love my friends so much yet i did not express a thing. As a friend, i'll do my best to show my appreciation becos it had been a long journey.
Whatever flaws we see, i believe tolerating and accepting it and changing it would be the best way out.
However, actions speak louder than words.
And i've found out, say it when you mean it and express your love for somebody if you haven't, tell em how impt they're to you. Becos it's a pain to think if the truthful relationships you had, be it friends/gf/bf/family, think of you as a truthful person too. You might never have the chance to say what you really feel. |
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[Mar. 12th, 2008|02:57 am] |
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i tried so hard to fight the insecurities that linger, i hope it dont bring me down. |
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[Mar. 11th, 2008|02:06 pm] |
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| | black label | ] |
I wanna play mahjong but i think nobody wanna play? argh, life. Results better come out fast, my parents are impatient and so am i. Hopefully it's a success cos i've got rejected by two schools alr. Ok i need cig and i need to play mj.
I think even if i post everything seems nonsensical and makes no sense. Should be a time to quit this.
Adiosaaaaa~ |
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[Mar. 9th, 2008|07:28 pm] |
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i'm trying to mend paperheart with sweetness but it keeps on breaking. |
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[Feb. 27th, 2008|11:04 pm] |
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I'm tired, it's only the second day, but it's ending. Alright miss my baby and my dear friends and my enjoying slacking moments in punggol |
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| i walk in with my own resolve |
[Feb. 25th, 2008|03:48 am] |
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| | killswitch engage | ] |
The knowledge that seek the favor of another
Means the murder of self. |
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| My head's chilled, my heart's frozed. |
[Feb. 24th, 2008|02:20 am] |
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| | Lamb of God | ] |
I know i'll not give in. I demand like some shit. All of us are prideful creatures i can say, but actually all of us just want an assurance from someone. Now i see that there's no point being so prideful cos at the end of the day, not only you're suffering cos you aren't saying what matters most in your heart, it also affects the ones around you cos of the prideful smell that was spread around. No one is giving thus no one is taking. All i can always do is to listen, and when i speak, it all doesn't make sense.
Sometimes i just wish i can at least make sense out of my words.
But at least, i can find solace in the thought of your love, your touch, your face.
Tell me what's more to ask for other than you, this beautiful little prideful creature from yet another prideful, monster. |
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| It's you |
[Feb. 10th, 2008|03:30 pm] |
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| |  moody | ] |
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| | spoilt speakers | ] |
Why must it start all over agn, just right after i put everything down.
Maybe it's just some mind games i'm having.
Alright, Happy Cny people. I know i'm kind of late but whatever it is, it's still cny period and poker period.
Ok plans up. Valentine's coming. Which means money and some brain cells will get killed but the heart will feel so right.
And now let's hope this year would be a good year. Alright, i need some good phone when my phone.......argh. i feel so low without it.
Alright, it's time for breakfast and time to party!
Baby, every r/s has their qns and answers. I always wanted to know how much love is to you, and from the way you looked at me, i somehow catch the answers that's to our r/s. |
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[Jan. 29th, 2008|06:11 pm] |
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| | 10 years today | ] |
If you wanted it to be wrong, i'd want it to be right but i couldn't differentiate between what's right and wrong.
Just once, make it right for us. The only way out is to give in. If there's one to die, i'd gladly step out and be the one. |
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| You gotta sit back and hold tight |
[Jan. 27th, 2008|06:30 pm] |
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| | you should fucking die tonight | ] |
Happy bird-day to weelong. It was a xpensive night ytd. We went for steamboat and i ate vry little, a waste. But went pubbing and had a nice time vomitting ten cups of barley.martell and a tower, and i keep drinking. So it's heheehheheh. Just so that weelong is satisfied with his birthday.
Here's the birthday boy. Happy 19th
argh, my head still spins like shit. and i need cigs. Ok let's hope this yr wld be a very gd yr! A-wo-men. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2008|06:28 am] |
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that stupid direct admission exercise is a fuck. I got the heavy heart down here while the fucking page load like ten mins or longer. Just pray hard that i can get into the courses i want and yah just hope everything went well, or else i'll just die.I dont know if i can go all the polys and go for the application and i dont know if i need to send any documents to the poly esp sp and tp which i'm still thinking if i should go back that hell outta place.and sp doesnt even give any info on what to do, just smack their ass up.... only rp is detailed with informations yet it's named the lousiest poly in sg. GOD JUST GRANT ME! It's six plus in the morning now and later will have to go for steamboat! weelong's birthday you see. let's hope that the gathering wont be a bull shit one. But 18 dollars for it, i'm still quite reluctant to pay.hahah. i hope some people can do something about tp's application web, it's fucking slow and argh. fuck you. but good luck to me! |
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[Jan. 25th, 2008|02:41 am] |
I'm quite lazy to post and my com's down. My brother's on the left and i'm on the right using asiq's lappy. I don't feel like returning until i've learnt the song i want to learn. cmon asiq i know you're very nice to me and stuff so yah. ok money money pls, i wanna get a lot of things. Chinese new year is coming and i havent alter my shirt and pants. I need more pants. IF MONEY JUST COME CRASHING INTO MY LIFE, I SWEAR I'LL BE VERY GRATEFUL. I ONLY KNOW HOW TO TALK ABT MONEY OK, COS LIFE NOW IS JUST ABT MONEY, I WONDER HOW TO SURVIVE AFTER NS WHICH IS WORKING LIFE ALR. IT'LL BE HORRIBLE. time to go. !@#$%^&*
Ok, i hope jj feel better or something at least he'd still have us or something. Though we don't know each other for long but it's been quite some time. So cheer up dudey. So o levels results are out and it's my time to go school once agn. Let's just hope i can get into the course and school i want or more like with the people i wanna be with. Alrt, how i wish everybody can go poly tgt and have fun. I just hate to go places like that and meet all kinds of strangers or aliens. hahahah. alright this can be childish but who cares, it's fun though i got problem getting down after that. :) 
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and of course,
SHE'S MY LOVE,
MY HAPPINESS
<3  |
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[Jan. 4th, 2008|01:24 am] |
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I miss the air around here because something's wrong with my com and my brother just sent it for repairing. OK BUSY FUCK, OFF. |
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[Dec. 30th, 2007|01:35 am] |
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| | Song i sing and song you love listening to. | ] |
I wonder if i'm such a lousy friend, bf, son, grandson.
I want to be loved, cared, given in to,
I dont want to be picked upon, and i dont want to be a failure.
Suddenly,
Everything has changed.
And i feel like a joke, a fucking big joke. |
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[Dec. 29th, 2007|02:17 am] |
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| |  happy | ] |
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| | not listening to any | ] |
now it's just you and me, and me and you. <3
what are my plans now, more work, more money, more sleep and obviously more fun. |
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